The sky looks semi-beautiful today.
But only semi-.
Its not all that beautiful.


I should really stop reading so much. (into that moment)

heavenknows

6:36 PM

Q. Besides your mouth, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
A. Eh? I don't know...? I never got kissed before. Well, that kind of kiss, anyway.

Q. Were you happy when you woke up today?
A. Not really. I'm never happy when I wake up.

Q. How about now?
A. Yeah, somewhat. For unknown reasons, even to myself o.o

Q. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
A. Ahahahahahaha. Yes, actually. And I'm probably the only one who would say this.

Q. Who was the last person you ate with?
A. Mom and grandmother. Home. An hour ago.

Q. Are you currently taking a science class in school?
A. Uhhuh. Physics and Chemistry.

Q. Kiss on the first date?
A. I don't know...?

. Would you rather have chicken or steak?
A. Eh... Steak.

Q. What were you doing at 10 am?
A. In school. -checks timetable- In Chinese class, doing the test test thing.

Q. Are you different now than you were six months ago?
A. My hair is shorter I suppose? Six months would be... Ehm, March. Taller I hope? I suppose I went through quite a lot in that six months. Everyone did, I guess.

Q. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
A. Water? I can't remember when I last spilled something on myself.

Q. How old will you be in 10 months?
A. Sixteen, I guess? My birthday's in June.

Q. Who was the last person to text you?
A. -checks- Tan Zhi Xin?

Q. What month is your birthday in?
A. June. Yes, gemini month.

Q. Can you live a day without tv?
A. Sure. I live plenty of days without TV o:

Q. When was the last time you saw your dad?
A. Ten minutes ago. He just came home.

Q. How many pets do you have?
A. None. Unless you count the dust bunnies under my bed...?

Q. How many houses have you lived in?
A. -mentally counts- Four.

Q. How many city/towns have you lived in?
A. Two.

Q. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
A. Shoes on hot, 'sharp' surfaces. Socks on the black box floor. Bare feet on the grass, and sand.

Q. What is your favorite color?
A. Red, no questions asked :D

Q. What are you doing for your next birthday?
A. Its nine months away, how would I know now?

Q. What are you thinking about right now?
A. How I should really be studying my Physics now, instead of doing this, if I should get over my laziness and go get a cup of water, about today's Drama class, about the math question I still don't quite get.

Oh yes, I multi-task.

Q. Any plans for next weekend?
A. Study.

Q. Do you smile a lot?
A. Uhhuh. Or at least I think I do.

Q. When was the last time you cried and why?
A. Approximately three weeks ago. Er, drama filming, nervous breakdown.

Q. Have you ever had a life-threatening injury?
A. Eh, no I suppose.

Q.What do you want to be when you grow up?
A. Anime seiyuu Primary school teacher. Yes.

Q. Do you like flying or driving?
A. Hopping. I'm not qualified to do either of the stated.

Q. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
A. Stick shift...? Never heard of it.

Q. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
A. Books. Manga? Games. Books.

Q. Do you wear any jewelry daily?
A. Nope.

Q. Who got you the jewelry you are currently wearing?
A. N/A

Q.Who is the funniest person you know?
A. There are too many. No, seriously. This is why I laugh on a daily basis.

Q. How often do you remember your dreams?
A. Very often? I have a feeling that it gets distorted after a while of being tossed around during my brain's analysis, though. I've been dreaming of er... O level drama class people. I think. I remember seeing Cheryl and Carmina and Zaff and Abraham and Sylvia and Afiqah...? [/vague notion]

Q. What is your ringtone?
A. Hare Hare Yukai. Don't give me that look.

Q. Skim, 1%, 2%, or whole milk?
A. Chocolate. Milk. Yes :D

Q. Are you mad about anything?
A. A lot of things. Its easier to state the things that I'm not mad about. Like math.

Q. What time did you go to sleep last night?
A. Early, surprisingly. Like, ten-thirty.

--

Yes, I know I'm supposed to be mugging. I do know it, and practice it, contrary to what some people might think or say. Neither am I effing blind or deaf. But never mind. Dwell not on the bad. I feel surprisingly happy-ish today, considering there's nothing to be especially happy about. But still, its a good feeling. It doesn't come much, nowadays...

A beautiful link for all those other anti-Twilighters out there:
http://otahyoni.livejournal.com/130432.html
Savour it. Understand it. Laugh your asses off at it.

Now to attend to Physics.

Linger a little longer?

heavenknows

8:31 PM

Stolen from fanfiction.net


For people that hate stereotypes: If you think people should just shut up and stop, put this on your profile blog. (BOLD the ones you are.)

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz
I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy. [what the hell, much?]
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
I'm a CHRISTAN, so I MUST think gay people should go to hell.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.
I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE (or used to take) ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.
I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one".
I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.
I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool and thats how Russians roll.
I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I must be GAY TOO.
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy.
I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas.
Im a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.
Im a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.
Im STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.
I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly.
I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff
I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks
I'm ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7
I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.
I'm MIXED so I must be screwed up.
I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.
I'm in BAND, so I MUST be a dork.
I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA
I'm MORMON so I MUST be perfect
I'm WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I'm black
I'm GOTH so I MUST worship the devil.
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm an ASIAN GUY, so I MUST have a small penis.
I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
I'm a PREP, so I MUST be rich.
I don't like the SUN so I MUST be an albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.
I couldn't hurt a FLY, So I MUST be a pussy.
I support GAY RIGHTS, so I MUST fit in with everyone.
I hang out with teenage drinkers and smokers, so I MUST smoke and drink too.
I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.
I don't like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.
I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.
I tell people OFF, so I MUST be an over controlling bitch.
My hair gets GREASY a lot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.
I'm DEFENSIVE, so I MUST be over controlling and a bitch.
I'm a NUDIST, so I MUST want everyone to see my boobs.
I read Comics, so I MUST be a loser.
I hang out with a FORMER PROSTITUTE so I MUST be a whore myself.
I'm TEXAN so I MUST ride a horse
I’m a CROSSDRESSER, so I must be homosexual.
I draw ANIME so I MUST be a freak.
I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.
I WATCH PORN so I MUST be perverted.
I'm an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled.
I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak. [We'd have to define intelligent, but yeah.]
I am AMERICAN so I MUST be obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.
I'm WELSH so I MUST love sheep
I'm SCOTTISH so I MUST have ginger hair and wear a skirts (It's actually called a kilt)
I’m a YOUNG WRITER, so I MUST be emo.
I’m CANADIAN, so I MUST talk with a funny accent.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST ditch my pregnant girlfriend.
I'm CANADIAN, so I MUST love hockey and beavers.
I'm DISABLED, so I MUST be on Welfare.
I'm a FEMINIST, so I MUST have a problem with sexuality and I want to castrate every man on the earth.
I'm a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE.
I WEAR A BIG SUNHAT when I go outside, so I MUST be stupid.
I like BLOOD, so I must be a VAMPIRE.
I'm an ALBINO, so I MUST be an evil person with mental abilities and is A MURDERER!
I'm ENGLISH, so I MUST speak with either a cockney or a posh accent, love tea and cricket, and have bad teeth.
I’m WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet: past, present, and future.
I don't like YAOI or YURI, so I must be a HOMOPHOBE
I’m not the most POPULAR person in school, so I MUST be a loser
I care about the ENVIRONMENT...I MUST be a tree hugging hippy
I have a FAN CHARACTER, so I MUST be an annoying Mary-sue.
I CHAT, I MUST be having cyber sex.
I'm PAGAN so I MUST sacrifice babies and drink the blood of virgins
I'm PAGAN so I MUST worship Satan
I'm CONSERVATIVE, so I MUST be against Abortion
I'm SWEDISH so I MUST be a tall blond blue-eyed lesbian.
I'm a LESBIAN so I MUST want to get with every single girl that I see.
I like CARTOONS, so I MUST be IRRESPONSIBLE.
I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER.
I have my OWN spiritual ideology; therefore I MUST be WRONG or MISGUIDED.
I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST.
I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST.
I am a WITCH, so I MUST be and OLD HAG and fly on a broomstick.
I love YAOI, so I MUST be GAY.
I'm a PERSON, so I MUST be LABELED
I DON'T CURSE, so I MUST be an outcast
I like GAMES, ANIME and COMICS, so I MUST be childish
I'm SWEDISH, therefore I MUST be WHITE.
I SPOT GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, so I MUST be a pedantic bastard.
I'm GOTHIC, so I MUST be mean.
I’m STRONG so I MUST be stupid.
I'm Australian so I MUST hunt crocodiles and talk to kangaroo’s
I go to RENFAIRES, so I MUST talk weird, be a loser, and not be up with the times
I’m GAY so I’m after EVERY straight guy around.
I don’t want a BOYFRIEND so I MUST be Lesbian. [pfft.]
I'm NOT CHRISTIAN so I MUST just need converting.
I love marching band, so I MUST be a friendless freak.
I DRINK and SMOKE, so I MUST have no life.
I am friends with a CUTTER, so I MUST be a CUTTER too.
I cry easily, so I MUST be a wimp.
I can't help pointing out mistakes so I MUST be an over-controlling perfectionist
I'm a PERFECTIONIST so I MUST check everything ten times, then burst into tears at one mistake
I DON’T LIKE to talk about my personal life so I MUST be having problems
I like FIRE so I must be an arsonist.
I play VIDEO GAMES so I MUST be a LOSER.

And just so that we're clear, I personally don't agree with any of the stereotypes up there.

heavenknows

9:15 PM

Yay :3 These guys are strangely addictive. Another one gotten from kookies o:

Opening credits:
Out of place- Gavin Thorpe

[D: I'm out of place?!]

Waking up:
Love Song- Fruits basket

[I'm going to be woken up by LOVE? Yay xD]

First day of High School:
KiraKira- Eufonius

if you're next to me
tomorrow will always be fun
the center of my heart is
swaying gently

[I'm going to be with someone I like? To JC or something? Woo :3]

Falling in love:
Accidentally In Love- Counting Crows

[Oh my. I'm going to fall in love, accidentally? o.o]

Fight song:
Flipside- The Click Five

[I'm going to flip them over onto their asses! :D]

Breaking up:
Control- Metro Station

[I'm going to be in control? o.o]

Prom:
Geek In The Pink- Jason Mraz

[I'm going to be a geek, wearing pink. Yay.]

Life:
Honto no Jibun- Buono!

[I'm going to be my true self?]

Mental breakdown:
How Crazy- Yui

[I'll go crazy. Very crazy. Hahahaha.]

Driving:
Semi-Charmed Life- Third Eye Blind

[?]

Flashback:
Ignited- T.M Revolution [Gundam Seed Destiny]

We break each other down till we can't even move
Our solitary wings overlapped,
We've not encountered the light;
Reveal the glare this age gives off

[Bad flashback, I suppose.]

Getting back together:
You and Me- Lighthouse

[Well, obviously it'd be about 'you' and me...?]

Wedding:
Let Me Be With You- ROUND TABLE

To make sure the two of us meet, I cast a spell
Our hands are gently touch, and then look at me smile
We pretend not to realize how we really feel
And suddenly, we fell in love

[o: So sweet.]

Birth of child:
Minna Daisuki- Buono [Translates into 'I love everyone']

[I'll love every one of them, ahah.]

Final battle:
Built To Last- Melee

[I was built to last the fight!]

Addictive. Very. But its late, so I shall be going.
'Night.

heavenknows

12:10 AM

I fell into the mud on Friday -.-
And I wasn't even playing soccer. I was just attempting to help those who were playing soccer, get their ball back. And then I fell slid into the mud, despite very in-effective warnings. Funny how its only after I got mud-ed [and the mud off], that I went to kick the ball. Hahah. Clean missed a few times, Carmina laughed enough to let everyone know...
But hey, at least I learned how to kick without hurting my foot. Even while playing barefoot.

And in the end, the mud made everything clean again.



Alright, quiz time! Music-player-set-to-random sort now.

How does the world see me?
Hare Hare Yukai- Aya Hirano

On one sunny day
The fun beyond magic
Pours limitlessly; it’s not impossible
When we meet again tomorrow, I’ll be humming while laughing
Let’s gather up happiness
It’s so simple by-this-much
Chase it, try catching it

[So I'm happy and random and... Sunny? o.o]

Will I have a happy life?
Any Way You Want It- Journey

[I'll be happy if I want to be happy then? I WANT TO BE HAPPY!]

What do people really think of me?
Dancing In The Velvet Moon- Nana Mizuki

A sleepless, velvet moon
Adorned our clandestine room
With just the two of us, we secretly lock the door
Let’s dance, and succumb ourselves to this mischievous moment

[... This can't possibly be a positive view of me.]

Do people secretly lust after me?
Fergalicious- Fergie

[No comment. No idea how to interpret either.]

How can I make myself happy?
Lollipop- Mika

Sucking too hard on your lollipop,
Or love's gonna get you down

[So I either don't fall in love, or I go and buy myself a lollipop.]

What should I do with my life?
You Had a Bad Day- Daniel Powter

[I should either have a lot of bad days, or help people with their bad days?]

Will I ever have children?
Can You Feel The Love Tonight- Disney

[What! Not tonight!]

What is some good advice for me?
Fiona's Cafe- Soler

[Alright. I should go find a cafe owned by Fiona, whoever she is]

What do I think my current theme song is?
At The Beginning- Disney [Anastasia]

[O_O I want to go back to the beginning with someone?!]

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Be Your Girl- Elfen Lied

[... They think I'm someone's girl?!]

What song will play at my funeral?
Okaeri- Ayaka [Translates into 'Welcome Home']

[I'm going home, then...?]

What type of men/women do you like?
Dance With Me Tonight- Hugh Grant [From Music and Lyrics, the movie]

Wondering if anything will go right
Or will you dance with me tonight?

[I like people who will dance with me at night?]

What is my day going to be like?
Friends- Stephanie [From Gundam Seed Destiny?]

"Let my dreams come true"
I pray from the bottom of my heart
We're friends forever
Let's pledge to meet again
Swear on it
We're going to walk forward
Toward an unseen destination
Even if we're lost
We'll continue
No matter what

[So I'm going to meet my friends, get lost, and continue to walk to an unseen destination? xDD]

Why am I here?
First Love- Utada Hikaru

[Oooh. I'm here for love?]

What will people remember me for?
Five Colours In Her Hair- McFly

[Ahahah! People will remember me for my hair! And my weirdness :D]

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Are You Gonna Be My Girl- Jet

[But I don't want anyone to be my girl...?]

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
Fool For Love- Stefy

[Yes, because they're fools for love? -doesn't understand-]

What will this year be all about?
Bon Bon- Hey! Say! 7

The melody blowing beside me like a gentle breeze
If you’re going to be confused or sway, listen closely
I know, I love you and that's why I want to be with you
Because there is a gentleness there that can’t be denied

[o: Its gonna be about love?]

heavenknows

9:18 PM

One foot in each camp.
Its somewhat inevitable to move on to the second.

...

But what if I'm not ready?

Why does one have to be so easily simplistic, so utterly attractive as permanency.
And the other is so frustratingly complex, yet alluringly different.
Why can't we just stay in the same place forever?
Or why can't we have a little bit of each...?


As much as I'd love to, I don't understand.
Again.

heavenknows

11:45 PM

You said just breathing deep would make things alright.
You said that most of the things in life were caused by not breathing right.



I'm breathing.

It doesn't seem to be working though.

heavenknows

8:16 PM